This is another cross-post from my Tumblr. Sorry for the lack of originality. But I’m working on, in case it wasn’t clear, a 30-day writing challenge (which may or may not take me 30 days). Some of the answers are as short as I expect, but some of them surprise me, and I delve just a little bit deeper.
Day 6 – Did you face any problems regarding religion?
Um. I first recognized I was queer while attending a conservative fundamentalist parochial high school, after having spent a number of years in a conservative fundamentalist parochial elementary and middle school.
My pastors and religion teachers — some of whom were/are genuinely nice and kind people — taught the doctrine that homosexuality was a sin and abomination before God and that one abomination (like homosexuality) was a gateway to other abominations, like promiscuity, not wanting ALL TEH BAYBEEZ, goat-fucking, and such. For a long time, my family — some explicitly, some implicitly — backed them up on this. (I know now that some of my family was like, “Well, we didn’t mean for you to get quite such a fundamentalist upbringing.”) Even now, a lot of my childhood and adolescent friends and acquaintances — maybe most of them? — continue to share these beliefs.
When it comes to believing that this dogma is narrow-minded, hateful, and wrong, I can do that. When it comes to finding new friends who share my revised beliefs, I can do that. When it comes to subjecting myself to vulnerability and likely condemnation (in the actual damnation sense) from people who once were, to greater or lesser degrees, my spiritual advisors, that’s a lot stickier.
So yes, you could say I face(d) problems regarding religion.